Because lemonadetea called me a pansy on Twitter. You win. >______> Lets try to contain this to NEWS, KAT-TUN, and Kisumai?


Give me a pairing and I will tell you:

what was their first kiss like?
where were they their first time having sex?
who’s louder?
who wakes up first?
favorite form of foreplay?
who performs/receives oral more often?
what kink they most often use?
who more often tries new things?
if they had to choose a third (or more) person to include who would it be?
favorite toy?
is there a certain thing one of them can’t have sex without?
their general feelings on sex in the relationship?
how careful are they about using protection?
a fantasy of one that the other will never be able/willing to fulfill?

THE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL MEME



Which was perfectly timed because I feel like shit right now. I'm running a slight fever and I'm waiting to see if it goes down before calling out of work.

Ryan and I broke up yesterday.



I'm okay. Honestly. There's a lot going on psychologically with me from past....flings....and it wasn't fair to him that he wanted to take things further when I mentally can't. And in the long run, it wouldn't be fair to him and his family for me to meet his family ((which he had been pushing)) when I can't take him to meet mine ((and I'm pretty sure my dad still never knew)).



We're still friends though. And I really value that more than anything.

This entry really has no purpose. Really. I could probably come up with something to give it meaning, but I honestly just want to say that I finally finished The Hunger Games series, and I want to cry. ;A;



This is, legit, the first series of books ((not including manga)) that I have read for pleasure. I'm 22. What is my life? I've always been a slow reader so I never liked reading out loud in school, and the school ruined reading for pleasure for me by requiring the summer reading lists. Complete with notes. And even then I didn't read much. Call of the Wild was always on the list. I seriously only read the story once and then recycled the notes through the years. Then senior year I used my sisters notes for Brave New World. I'm sure there were others that I was forced to read, but I honestly don't remember them. OTL And even before summer reading lists for school I never did like to read, according to my mother.




Seriously though, is that sad? That I'm 22 and I've only just now started and finished reading a series on my own? I feel like a late bloomer.

And let it be known that the fourth is strong with this one.




It's Star Wars Day. I cannot resist.




Just wanted to say that William is out of surgery and everything went fine. The doctors are taking x-rays and double checking that everything is good before they close him up. I'll update this post once I hear.




Edit: William's in recovery. Mom said his chest looks really good. <3<3<3

William's surgery is scheduled for May 4th.



And I also keep seeing this fic meme floating around, and while I'd like to participate I'm lacking in some serious writing skillz, and I legit only have one prompt I want to see written. Hardly seems fair when I have no options to give. :x

Yeah, I've disappeared again. OTL I'm sorry, but I have a pretty big update for you at least. Or at least it's bigger than most things I update about. >_____>



Work is work. Nothing's changed except two of the girls are leaving because they both got two different jobs. One girls last day was the 14th, and I'm not sure when the other girls last day is. I've also got applications out for teaching jobs, and I'm hoping to hear back from at least one, because that'll already be a 100% improvement from the zero schools I heard from last year.



I just got back from Florida for a wedding. It was interesting. I've known Andrew ((the groom)) basically my entire life, or at the very least 18 years. We grew up together, and it was very weird watching him get married. And Johanna ((the bride)) is super nice and super cute, and that makes it hard for me to hate her. >_____<. I think there will always be some underlying feelings for Andrew since we were so close, but if it were to have happened between us it would have happened. So I was a good girl and smiled for them.



Then at the reception I caught half the bouquet. Andrews's cousin Kate caught the other half. At most weddings I've been to, you catch the bouquet--you're done. Well. This was one of those weddings where whoever caught the garter has to put it on the girl who caught the bouquet. Johanna magically happened to have two. My thoughts in my head?


"Did I shave today?"
"Are my panties cute?"


Kate didn't want anything to do with the garter at this point in time, so I actually got to keep it. I had to give the other one back to Johanna.



And then day before I left for Florida, Ziva ((my kitteh)) got reaaaaaally sick. She had been to the vet previously because she peed on my couch and turns out she had a UTI. She had been on the antibiotic for a week and a half and then suddenly she wasn't keeping her food down, wasn't drinking, nothing. I got money from my bank and left it so if she had to go to the vet, Jennifer could take her. She ended up going to the vet twice before I got home to take her again. When she was at the vet to get her shots earlier in the year, she weighed 13.6lbs. She now weighs 12lbs. That's a lot of weight for a kitty at a really fast rate. And it's also really expensive because I withdrew $200 for just the one appointment. Well the first trip was $175. The second one was $137, which Jennifer had to pay ((and I paid her back)), and then the third trip when I got back was $235, because she had to get x-rays done.



I just got off the phone with the vet actually, and there's nothing wrong abdominally, but the specialist was concerned that there might be lung damage which could have been a result from allergies. We're trying a steroid treatment on her, and I'm to pick them up either later today or tomorrow.



Ziva's my child. ;A; Nothing but the worst was going on through my head while I was in Florida. I'm just glad to have a potential answer. And that I have Jennifer. <3<3<3



And now for the obligatory "NEWS is back!" keysmash:



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I will definitely be buying the single, if not multiple copies depending on my funds and if that new Kisumai song gets a single and when that comes out. I voted for my favorite songs for the Best Of album((Snow Express, Forever, Why, and Kimi Omou Yoru)), but I probably won't get it. I can't justify spending $48 on songs that I already have unless they re-record them as the four of them. I'm also pissed that options like "code" and "Gomen ne Juliet" are on there. Seriously? I don't want them on my NEWS CD when they aren't part of NEWS anymore. That just furthers my belief that they won't be re-recording any of the songs. But whatevs. They're back. <3

I just put my order in for the X-Box 360 that looks and sounds like R2-D2........



My bank account is going to cry this month. ;~; Though at least I can pay a little off at a time, which means I can wait for my rent to go though and pay my bills and, you know, stuff that's important. >_____________> I have until April 3rd, so I'll get paid twice between now and then.



And hopefully after all of this I'll still have enough somewhere for the Kisumai album. >________

At this point in time I basically stole it from everybody. >______>

( How I want my Johnny's )

I owe you guys an entry now.



Sorry I've been playing the creepy-stalker game recently. I have no excuse. orz I just haven't had much to update on, but then I realized that I haven't updated on a few things in general.



1) I have a boyfriend? Ryan and I made it all official January something or other. It was official for me on the 1st, but it wasn't for him until later because he didn't think I was serious. >______> Mom isn't too thrilled because Ryan is black, and I still don't know if Dad knows. :/ I love my family, I do, but honestly if my sister can date girls, I should be allowed to date someone with a penis regardless of skin color. Besides--he's educated, he's presentable, and I've known him for years. I'm happy.



2) JCPenney kept me on as a regular part-time worker. \o/ They didn't keep a lot of seasonal workers, and I almost didn't get to stay. I had to change my availability up a bit. I made Tuesday and Thursday open for JCP on top of the weekend, and that kept Monday, Wednesday, and Friday open for subbing.



3) You remember my brother? The one with the fifty-million problems? Well he was hit by a car Thursday. I was at work and Mom left a voicemail on my phone so I didn't hear about it until after work. My heart sank. Literally just sank. He was on his bike on campus and a gust of wind pushed him into a moving car. He's banged up, but he's fine. Nothing broken. There is nothing worse than those phone calls though. Thank everything holy for helmets. <3 Karma owes this kid big time.